Me in the Wonderland

Tanuj came to a fork in the road. "Which road do I take?" he asked.
"Where do you want to go?" responded the Cheshire cat.
"I don't know," Tanuj answered.
"Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter!! Does it??"

Thats what I'd gotten myself into as well. I was living....not knowing how, not knowing why....just living. Until things changed and changed for the better....Realizations come to me...slower than they do to others!! I had an answer for the Cheshire Cat.....I wanna go on the road which would take me to love, to freedom and to learning....thats what I want from life.

The Cat showed me the way.....I have love which I cherish, I have freedom which I take for granted and I have learnings which I crib about.....

Love...what does it do to you? How long has it been since someone touched part of you other than your body? Its what has gotten me to where I am and those who are responsible for it know it as they read. I have been lucky, I turned my face away from love refusing to believe its very existence. It never went away. It stayed there till I looked back and from then on, its been with me through thick and through thin...!! One needs to learn to respect love... It makes the journey of life worthwhile. Its given me a purpose for sure....I teaches you to dream, to imagine, to plan....It inspires you to slog, to sweat, to succeed....It is the triumph of imagination over intelligence!! ....believe and enjoy it....:)

Freedom...Often taken for granted...Its an blessing, to each one of us. For me, its a chance to be better...Its my right to live the way I wish to. It is the reason why I am happy. Its what allows me to make mistakes and yet come up stronger..It gives me the ability to do what I want, to be what I am, to go where I want to- enjoy the trees, the sea,the mountains, the smell of rain on earth.., to read or hear what I wish, to eat what I want to. Freedom is also the ability to choose wrongly & irresponsible.
We are extremely lucky to have been born in a country as free as India. Its sad that a lot of us have chosen rather irresponsibly at times. With great power come great responsibilities. Freedom is our power. We can use this power either to be Hyde or Jekyll..

Learning....Some people walk in the rain, others just get wet...what do you wanna do? No matter where I go or what I do, I'll always live my entire life within the confines of my head. And I want my head to be as huge as possible. the learning never stops. Each day brings with it something new.... and to learn the new we must look at the yesterday as well. If I stop learning, I'll stop growing and if I stop growing, I stop living!! Be it books, movies, the TV, my boss, the office politics...it brings with it learning and if you don't learn fast enough, you're in danger of becoming extinct. And thats something I'm certainly not willing to do....

Getting back to the Cat..... Here's wht else he said...."Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do."

Nowz not for ever....but live now to the fullest:)

P.s- I don't know why I am writing this.....Saw OSO today....a decent flick...here's a quote from the movie which made me think...."kehte hai ki filmon ki tarah hamari zindagi mein bhi end tak sab theek hee ho jaata hai..happys endings...aur agar theek naa ho toh woh the end nahi, picture abhi baaki hai mere dost..." True...isn't it?? Wish loadsss of happiness to all of ya...:)

Slacker Blogger

"I bargained with Life for a penny,
And Life would pay no more,
However I begged at evening
When I counted my scanty store;

For Life is a just employer,
He gives you what you ask,
But once you have set the wages,
Why, you must bear the task.

I worked for a menial's hire,
Only to learn, dismayed,
That any wage I had asked of Life,
Life would have paid."

I love the last line in there......any wage i had asked of life ...life would have paid. I often find myself here and complaining of life...my work, my lack of work, my privacy, my friends, the traffic, the food....everything!! You get what u throw at life....if its complaints, life creates more and more reasons for u to complain.......U get what u sow!!!

I had nothing special to write in a long time, no personal memorable incidents, no excitement, nothing... seemed as though life had come to a standstill or rather had come to be a monotony...... Damn, this corporate world... The only happy moments left in the day was the 1 hr i got with mann every night......... and then I realised that there was nothing but me stopping myself from believin that the life is a memorable journey, full of excitement....I just have to change my outlook. I just have to throw things which'll make me happy at life and i'll get more happiness....!!

Ok...enough of gyaan....abhi abt me...the weekend was a rather non vegy weekend....Well yeah u read it right...non vegy... (Not that non vegy ....I am one of you guys... i know u think alike....!!!) The real non vegy...As in the food....yeah...If u are a regular reader here u would know that i am the happiest talking abt only 2 things....food being one of them and the other everyone knows...(*blushes*). Ok so the non vegy weekend...I had non veg for lunch and dinner on saturday and sunday....and believe u me...I was done by the sunday dinner...I could not eat a piece...can u beat that ...Me and not eating chicken!! Hmmm...I guess excess of anything does that to u....doesn't it???

I went to my mamu's place this saturday...I got caught for the first time for jumping a red light...well I did not jump the light....I just crossed it when it was yellow...and i was nice enough to stop the car when everyone else was crossing over inspite of the police wala askin them to stop!!! I am a nice guy u see....so I did stop the car when i could have driven straight on...So this fatty guard type person (with his tummy hanging out as though its gonna fall of any second or better still as though he was 18 months pregnant) walks up to me and asks for my papers and my license. By now I have strted to "congratulate" myself for stopping!! Ok...so i give the papers and walk up to the real cop...(who is sitting on a chair and has the buttons of his shirt opened as though he were sitting on a beach in goa)....who calmly tells me that he'll have to cut a challan unless i "think" abt it....Now it doesn't take a genius to decipher what I had to think abt....So i told him to read the name on the registration...(my dads name...hehehe ..he is in the army)....he did that and gave me a sheepish grin and asked me to go....Here's some food for thought......Assuming that the light changes every 2 mins.....and he has a duty of 8 hrs. And each time he catches someone he ends up earning atleast 200 bucks! Almost an opportunity of earning a cool 6000 bucks an hr...and in 8 hrs....48000 bucks!!! thats 48000 bucks for actually doing nuthing and catching hold of guys who innocently cross when the light is yellow....How unfair is that!!!!

Yes so that's the round up...the very unattractive slacker blogger status is creeping up on me and it really doesn't feel good....Do u see me rusting too??? hmm...maybe i should blog more....nahi?? (psst: Dont tell me if u think i have rusted;)......hehehehe)

Till latersss.....Now is not for ever:) :) :)

Found him.....

Dear Blog,

Its bee ages since I wrote something on you….Truth be told..its been so long that I would be surprised if you’d even remember who I am! I’ve just never felt the urge to sit n write something…I sometimes feel that it’s a worthless exercise! Bu then there are times that I get these guilt pangs that I haven’t updated u in more than a month. A lot has happened in my life…most of it you know already!

From the days of nervousness to today (the days of happiness)….I’ve had a helluva ride! And I’m glad the way things have turned out for me….I can only be thankful and hope that life gets better…..( it already is great…and u know why!)

[Mann…ur the reason…stand up and take a Bow…..]

Its been almost 2 yrs that I’ve known you M. Blog…..but do u know me well enough?? Just thought I’d introduce myself better…

• I think Jim Davis was inspired by me when he created Garfield…. eat (big eater), sleep mmm the word makes me sleep!) and hate Mondays (worst day of the week!)!
• I am not a chocolate fan…I have never bought or finished a bar of chocolate!
• I have this extreme urge to be in the good books of everyone and in this process I end up trying too hard and getting stuck
• I find it extremely hard to say a “no” to anyone!
• I have this maniacal urge to have everyone around me smiling!
• I was very conscious about my voice…I still find it too girly!
• I make extremely yummy food…IF I want to…!
• I am a self proclaimed introvert ………. I like it this way!!!
• I am a very slow reader…By the time I finish a novel, you’d probably have be a 170 yrs old!!
• I like sleeping... coz i like dreaming abt u know who
• I have oodles of patience which I loose very often:D
• I never had a cell phone until I was outta my college. I bought a 2100 for 7 grands (my first phone) & the N 70 for 19 grands both from my own salaries.
• I lock myself up and play music really loud music on my comp when I get angry…. I love fiddling with my phone when I am angry and that’s how I learn to use it.
• I love watching the Amazing race…I think the entire concept is a lot of fun!
• I hate…absolutely hate getting on the weighing scale! It scares me..
• I love mangoes….n litchis….n grapes…n oranges….n Chicken Mcgrill burger yummm!
• I am 26 and I love animated movie flicks!! Ice age is my favourite…:)
• My jogging shoes are Canadian worth $100. Extremely comfy!
• I DO NOT snore when I sleep!! (Mann thinks that I do…I refuse to accept it….)
• I have a yellow tiffin box with bunnies on it..and another with one with mickey, pluto n Minnie on it (cant find it any more :-( ) which i still love as much as i did when i was actually 7..
• I hate being woken up…except if its Mann waking me up
• I think I have weird hair….but atleast I have hair….am losing the lil that I have left…I wish I’d have them left before I get married.
• I love watching TV…even if nothing is on…it fascinates me no ends!
• I had a Citibank credit card when I was merely 18!!
• I’ve been to all the states in India except Tripura, Orrisa n Kerela. I love traveling around. P.s - Mann….can we please keep traveling?
• I hate the noise that comes out when u rub ur hand on a balloon!
• I am extremely scared of rides. The only one time I was able to sit on one was with the person I trust the most and of all the people on the ride, I squealed the most.
• I learnt to ride a bicycle coz my mom bribed me with jalebis!
• I learnt to drive a car when I was 15…I’ve had only one accident till date! Touch wood!
• I am scared to decide…but once I do I stick by it!

I know this is very rusty, but I am writing after a longtime…the only way to go from here is up! Coz now….is not forever!!

What did I do to Tanuj?

They said..."You're doing it again...!! Forget it...We don't wanna talk..". "But I'm not!!!...its just that I'm eating...(Its been a tough day...)...."

And then there was silence. The phone had gone off.. and the words echoed in my ears..

Do I really become someone else? Do I change?

Brain: No u dont...U try too hard and overdo it.
Heart: Overdo what?? Either I do it or I don't....where does overdo come from ..?
Brain: Thats your problem..You're not even willing to listen
Heart: I listen....I always listen...I've always been listening!
Brain: Thats what u've done to urself...
Heart: What? What..."Pray tell..."
Brain: Nothing...just forget it....
Heart: Forget what??
Brain: You'll not understand....U can't ever understand.You know what your problem is...you take everything upon u...anything that goes wrong...u think its because of u.....
Heart: It is....I did it again....I become someone else....!
Brain: You try too hard...maybe if u just let go of urself u'd be more u!!
Heart: Doesn't work...I am a no gooder...
Brain: U are...thats why u are what u are....U wouldn't be where u are if u were a no gooder...
Heart: Professionally maybe....personally, I am nothing but a dissapointment...
Brain: It'll be ok....You'll get there....keep at it..& quit pretending!
Heart: What do i do?? What do i do?? I wanna run away....
Brain: As if....
Heart: What??
Brain: As if thats a solution....
Heart: No its not!
Brain: There u go..
Heart: Patience...I wish they'd be more patient with me....I am not a bad person....I want them to be happy.....All I do is end up adding to their misery Can't live up to the expectations...
Brain: And Why....ever thought? Maybe u try too hard....maybe u are scared of something...
Heart: Failing!
Brain: You'll ensure it if u continue ur ways...
Heart: What do i do? What do i do??


Today has been a bad day...whatever I've done...said has backfired on me...I wouldn't wanna go in the details but it has all gone horrible wrong. Has been one of the worst days...& thinking that yesterday I was the happiest I've been in a long time....Life does pull u down...REAL HARD when it decides too...and u can't do anything but freefall and hope that when you hit the rock bottom, you don't get hurt. You know you'll have to climb again....and you know you'd fall again...and again and again!

The fall is much worse if u end up feeling that you were at fault.....or maybe if you are made to believe that you were at fault. Its much worse if you've been trying hard....Its much worse if you think you're climbing well...Its much worse if you can't break it...try as u might!

At such times i am reminded of something which my grandma once told me once when I came back almost in tears coz others would tease me that I'm too fat....I'd always try hard to fit it...participate in races, come last (be made fun of) and not tell anyone at home..Ignore all the hurtful (nicknames ranging from "hathi" to "sumo" to"fatso") that you'd get..
She said...

"You are what you are...be proud of it...you don't have to fit in...be what you want to be...let the world follow u..."

I ignored her...and i have been ignoring her...trying to be Tanuj Kapoor who others want to see.....and in amongst all this I think I've lost the real me...I don't recognize him anymore...Was he talkative or was he quiet? Was he fun loving or was he serious? Did he make fun of others or did he join in when somebody was being made fun of? Did he like being laughed at or did he detest it....? Where is me?? Who am I? Who have I become....

All I ever did was....Try and fit in....All I try to do now is...try to fit in....I wanna break free....do what I wanna do...not let them complain...not let them troubled coz of me...cos this is what I am...I wish i had listened to u dadima..I wish I would listen to u now....but I can't promise...I wouldn't dare to do that...for the fear that I wouldn't "fit in"...

This one is for me....I think Ciara was thinking of me when she wrote this.....


Everyone Wants To Be Like The Other
Look Around And You Will Discover
Take A Chance And Try Something Different
Don't Be Scared You Might Make A Difference

Some People Might Call You Crazy
And They May Laugh At You And Says You A Fool
But You Cant Care If They Say Cause
Before You Know It They'll Be Following You

Da Da Da Da Da Da Da Da Da [x3]

Get In Fit In Get Out Get Out [x2]
If U Want Some Come Get Some
You Don't Want None Come Get Some

Say Iche Me Son
Itche Me Son

Get In Fit In Get Out Get Out [x2]

Try So Hard To Copy My Style
Take A Lesson Ill Show You How
But Why Not Try To Do Something Different
Take A Chance You Might Make A Difference

Some People Might Call You Crazy
And They May Laugh At You And Says You A Fool
But You Cant Care If They Say Cause
Before You Know It They'll Be Following You

Da Da Da Da Da Da Da Da Da [x3]

Get In Fit In Get Out Get Out [x2]
If U Want Some Come Get Some
You Don't Want None Come Get Some

Say Itche Me Son
Itche Me Son

Get In Fit In Get Out Get Out [x2]

[Talking:]
Now This Ones For Everybody Thats Right
I Need For You To Try Something Different
Now You Can Move Move How You Want It
And You Can Do Do What You Wanted
Thats Right I Said It

Get In Fit In Get Out Get Out [x2]
If U Want Some Come Get Some
You Don't Want None Come Get Some

Say Itche Me Son
Itche Me Son

Get In Fit In Get Out Get Out [x2]

Some People Might Call You Crazy
And They May Laugh At You And Says You A Fool
But You Cant Care If They Say Cause
Before You Know It They'll Be Following You

Da Da Da Da Da Da Da Da Da [x3]

Thats Right I'm Done

Itche Me Son
Itche Me Son

Do [x14]

Itche Me Son

Do [x14]

Itche Me Son

Pause:

(DON'T HAVE THE SONG ON mp3...i WISH I DID)

I KNOW IT CAN'T BE HEARD...BUT I AM SORRY THAT I DISSAPOINT...BUT I TRY HARD...I WILL CHANGE. BE PATIENT AND TELL ME THAT I AM TRYING TOo HARD AND I DONT NEED TO DO IT...PLEASE BE PATIENT

The Guy in the Glass

I reached Delhi about 2 weeks back….and its been real hectic ever since. Getting up at 7 in the morning… (it’s a pain) but thanks to people around me….i do manage to get up! I usually get ready by 8 and then get online to check my mails and have my breakfast …all at the same time.. The only multi tasking I manage to do….I’ve been told that I ain’t good at that either. Then strts the torture of an hr…driving to office! Its almost 20 kms from my home….music keeps me from getting too irritated…the traffic is horrible…reminds me of Calcutta at times….I never thought I’d admit it…but I do miss Calcutta at times…the ease of reaching office….proximity to office…it was fun…but this sure is better...!

Office is very different….Calcutta mein people either worked while cribbing or did not work at all…yahaan…u can actually see people enjoy their work..and when the environment is such…u feel like wrkin as well…! My boss is a 32 yr old GM…abt 5 grades above me…I just hope I reach the level he has by the time I am 32…:) The others around are fun too…It’s all very vibrant.

How can I forget the food…the food is awesome! Especially after Calcutta ke office ka food…I will remember it with sukto and maach….I had my quota full of them!

I usually strt back at abt 6.30and reach by 7.30….the day is almost over by then…..well…that’s a normal day for me in short….

But here’s what I have been itching to put up on this space for a while….I recently happened to read a poem… It is titled “ The Guy in the Glass” here’s how it goes:

When you get what you want in your struggle for self,
And the world makes you King for a day,
Then go to the mirror and look at yourself,
And see what that guy has to say.

For it isn't your Father, or Mother, or Wife,
Who judgement upon you must pass.
The feller whose verdict counts most in your life
Is the guy staring back from the glass.

He's the feller to please, never mind all the rest,
For he's with you clear up to the end,
And you've passed your most dangerous, difficult test
If the guy in the glass is your friend.

You may be like Jack Horner and "chisel" a plum,
And think you're a wonderful guy,
But the man in the glass says you're only a bum
If you can't look him straight in the eye.

You can fool the whole world down the pathway of years,
And get pats on the back as you pass,
But your final reward will be heartaches and tears
If you've cheated the guy in the glass.

Truly speaking, I got this mail in a forward….I usually do not read forwards unless I have a lot of time…I just happened to chance upon this one. Made me think…yes yet again!! What do I see when I see urself in the mirror?? Am I proud of myself…? Am I happy at what I see? Can I look into the eye of the guy standing in front of me and hold my own??

I loved the poem … made a lot of sense to me….reminded me of soo many things that I need to do…I hope I do manage to live up to then…

Turn of events in life……I’m more convinced than ever…..

Now is not for ever!!!

Random musings....more of them!

Its been such a long time that I last wrote in here. I wonder why??….I can come up with reasons for the absence for sure…but the bottom line being, I just didn’t know what to write about. It often happens with me….I take up things with loads of zeal and then somewhere in the middle loose the enthu…I wonder if its normal or if it is me..!

The months seem to be passing by in a flash…seems like yesterday that I was sitting in my convocation at my college. Its been 7 months…7 long months which went by at a bat of an eyelid. It seems my destiny to stick around in Cal for some time to come…

I happened to watch Rocky balboa recently. Its an awesome movie with the usual punchy Rocky dialogues. Rocky is old now and owns a restaurant. He wants to get back into the ring and fight again coz he still thinks that he has some “fire” in his belly! How many of us give up much before the fire burns out? Do we tend to give up much before the breaking point? Isn’t it our responsibility to fight on ??

“…. This world is mean…life is unfair! To get something you gotta stop looking for shade! Go out in the sun…Each time you start to move ahead, you’ll get punched real hard on your face. Its not about how you’ll counter them….its about how after every hard punch, you’ll get up and keep moving. Life is not about fighting back…life is about living…you gotta do what u want to do , else you’ll never get up !”

That’s what Balboa tells his son who was rather edgy after hearing his decision to fight again! Doesn’t it make a lot of sense…I’m not sure if these are the exact lines he said….but the meaning is what is more important.

I tend to remember these small things which people end up saying … I remember long time back during one of the matches, Sidhu ( yes u read it right…..between all the talk he does often end up saying things which actually make a lot of sense) had said something…. “Between yesterday’s chances and tomorrows hope lie today’s opportunities….what are you doing about today?”

Which reminds me…work has been rather hectic of late! I moved into HR a week back and ever since I’ve been busy making something called the Manpower requisition forms and getting them signed off….for the last 6 months! Now ideally these forms should be made as and when there is a need to recruit someone. But obviously they weren’t being made. So now that the departmental audit is around corner, there was fire. I worked to get the things in order in time….working late….8, 8:30, 9…. (Yeah! That is late for me….). Each form required to be signed off by 4 people which included the ever busy departmental heads…here’s where I get proud of myself…Having worked under all of these people for the last 7 months…(and I’ve been through all that there is to understand….thoroughly cross trained :D)… I could use my equation with them to get these signed off in time. ( It is good with everyone…surprise surprise!!) . And here’s what I got for all my efforts…

My first recognition at airtel….even though if it was for something as stoopid as this…it feels great…!!
I have a feeling that companies do not appreciate their employees often enough….a simple thing like this bell can make a person like me feel proud of myself….a pat on the back, a certificate of apprecitation, appreciation in front of peers….I wonder why we are so miserly with them? And its not just corporate life…its even personal life…We are quick to criticise, back bite, bitch about people….how often do we appreciate ppl around us?

Let alone appreciation!!….How often do we go out of the way to get insignificant or maybe very significant people around us to smile…..the peons, the guards, the helpers, the servant… ….I make it a point to say a hi , a thank you , a good morning……trust me seeing their smiles just makes u feel all the more better…! Isn’t it what life is all about….spreading smiles?? If u’ve made him smile on 10 days, the one day that u have to shout at him…he wouldn’t mind…..its elementary human relations…..easier said than done but very doable…and it works…trust me!! Experience speaking…

Since I am done with my work, I am back to doing sweet nothings…..Isn’t it just great?? But hey now is not for ever….is it?? ENJOYJ

p.s.- feels good to be back!

Happy New Year...Here's something that I'm gonna try and live by this new year.....I hope it helps u in your resolutions too!

If you want something you never had, do something you've never done before

Don't go the way life takes you.
Take life the way you want to go .
And remember you are born to live and
not living because you are born.

ENJOY...coz NOW is not forever

Lucky to be me...!

I’m gonna start calling my life a routine from now on. As much as it brings in a sense of “the known”, it takes away the fun element. Why does everything look the same when they say that each day is a new day? Why do I find myself ambling through the day’s work and end up feeling that I’ve done this before? Why is routine so boring? Or is it I who finds the same thing painstakingly monotonous?

I, for one, find it really difficult to stay put in one place….and that’s why all the traveling (U shud’ve realized that by now). In yet another attempt to get out of the routine trap I planned a visit to Patna (well other people had a major had in the planning the trip…but who cares…I went through with it)….By the way….Yeah u read that right…Patna!! I do have a strong Bihari Connection….my dad was born and brought up in Patna and he stayed there until he was 17 before he got into the NDA. My dad’s elder brother, Bade Papa, still lives there. The last time I was in Patna was about 9 yrs ago…I was a gauky 16 year old (seems like ages ago)! The town has a strange sort of an aura to it…..for me it does! It puts my mind to rest. Maybe its the family...maybe its the home...i wouldn't know and I wouldn't think about it.. Should I?

This time was no different. The train chugged in at 7:30 and I couldn’t stop smiling as soon as I stepped down. “Back after ages….. You still are the same!!” The accented hindi, the crazy traffic, the insanely high autos, the potholed roads, the confusing crowd, the nauseating odour…it was still there. Rewind 9 years and the town was still the same.

Chetan Bhaiya was already home when I reached. The smile only got broader from then on. Meeting Ma, badepapa, Chetan Bhaiya ……The cherry on the icing was the food. One thing I miss here in Kolkata is the home food….the aaloo paratha, the bhindis, the rajmas, its not the same……whichever restaurant I go to. You’d think that I’d loose weight…I’m not one to loose any of it especially with the amount I eat out everytime even though I might complain about it. Makes me wonder at times how people manage to say they don’t have an appetite….I guess God created me to balance for them!

We had to go to Amrita bhabhi’s place to pick her and the two kids up. This was the first time that I would be going to her place and she’s been married 9 years….figures! The next two days went off in a flash…and all I can remember of the last 3 days is the people and what they mean to me..…

Chetan Bhaiya…referred by me more often than not as CK…he has been an inspiration to me in more ways than one even though I might never have told this to him. I still remember him telling rather scolding me (after I got a 40 odd in my Maths preboard) that anything less than a 70 % is a failure…. I guess I did my MBA coz I saw him do it and do well after it. I secretly admired him for the decisions he took howsoever unconventional …..his conviction, his belief in doing what he thought was right.

Bade Papa… Having stayed his entire life in Patna, I’m sure he has seen much more than I could ever hope to know. He is the quiet one…much like my dad or maybe me to a large extent. But it’s the small things that he does is what makes him special…. He is undoubtedly the pillar of the family and the strongest one at that.

Maa… need I say more?? The picture which comes to my mind when I think of her is, her standing and showing off that million dollar smile. Almost as though telling us that nothing is worth loosing it. She has been through a lot as well and I admire her courage to fight on and to never give in howsoever difficult the odds may be. A lot of people would have thrown in the towel where she fought on …and won….Courage personified!

Amrita bhabhi….She is the elder sister I always wanted…well not quite if u think literally….but in more ways than one. The more I say about her, the lesser it’d be. She epitomizes the word “mother”. Let Aatmaj and Aadhar (her 2 adorable kids) know that they are the lucky one’s…I’ve seen her through the worst of times with just a teardrop in her eye and a smile on her face. She has seen it all….and more!

The trip this time around was made even more special coz all of them were there. Each time I meet these people I realize how lucky I am. I wish we all stay the way we are….I always end by saying that Now is not forever….I’m tempted to wish that “Let now be forever….”

yup thats patna for u.... View from the top of the Gol Ghar... Well, this is the only view. The background has the Ganges. It used to flow right behing the yellow building. They say its changed course...I wonder why??? And thoughts cross my mind.. a lot of them....what has the city done to deserve this...I guess we all know the answer... here's a wish...Long live the city!!!