Here we go again.....

Its tough to understand why we do what we do. Why is it that something that you can't have seems all the more appealing while something that you don't want comes your way and try as you might...it just wouldn't go away!! Why do somethings never get right...try as you might!And the biggest question of them all.... Why do I seem to put on weight whenever I put in efforts to lose it!!??

Life's taken me a full circle..it seems yesterday once more! Or is it? I've lost a lot more hair for one....They say that you get wiser as your hair turns gray......I think God's decided that I can't get wise...Coz by the time its time for my hair to go gray, I don't think I'll have any left. Oh well, this is all rambling....stuff you write when you don't have anything else to do....

Which reminds me...this is exactly what the jurnos today seem to be doin! God do I hate to see the news when they try and put it across stating that "Your channel was the first to break the news....!"Uhh... excuse me, my channel?? When did I buy you guys....? How can news be complete without cricket? So if Dhoni had a fight with Sehwag, it'll be flashed as the "Breaking News"! Everything is a "Breaking News!!" ... and I won't even get to the Hindi news channels! Ahh... and how can we forget the slick animations and the music that'll easily make it to top the charts in any thriller....I miss the good old days... when news was news and it was told the way it is supposed to be told. Today's media...especially TV has become highly irresponsible. For a few dollar's more they're willing to put the life of millions at stake....for sensationalizing the news, they're willing to stoop to any levels! God save the country where the media's doing what the police needs to do....! Often the stories are unsupported am unauthenticated but shown anyway.

Media Glare these days can Dwarf any simple looking News to become a Sensational Breaking News... & the news just fizzles out the moment the juicy part of the story gets exhausted... Remember the Goa murder case of the teenage foreign girl or the Aarushi murder case..... Where are they heading for...? The Sensational media coverage after bombarding our homes has suddenly found it fit to be dumped into oblivion....Where is the responsible journalism? The recent coverage of the DeraSachkhand and sikh violence was appalling. All the news channels were scrambling to show the "live" visuals of the tension....If a commoner like me can realize that it might enrage even more people, why can't the wise old men in the industry or the politicians see this? The Australia attacks...The responsible media would try and bring calm to the already simmering situation by trying to bridge the divide... but here we have our media up in arms against Australia as though the entire country is racist and the indian students in Australia should fight back....Retaliate is what they did...didn't they? Its scary to even think of the repercussions...

With great powers come great responsibility...The media has the great power of reaching to all.....I hope the media realizes this and wakes up to its responsibilities!!

Choices choices!

1) LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN A THEATRE?
Iron Man...

2) WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
None...( that sounds bad....doesn't it??)

3) FAVOURITE BOARD GAME?
The Amazing Labarynth ....(loved that game as kid!)

4) FAVOURITE MAGAZINE?
hmmm..I like going through the India Today.

5) FAVOURITE SMELLS?
Jasmines, freshly baked cake and Be Delicious by DKNY

6) FAVOURITE SOUNDS?
Hearing Mann's voice first thing in the morning.

7) WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
Right after having a fight with sunshine.

8) WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
Do I have to get up?

9) FAVOURITE FASTFOOD PLACE?
Mc D's all the way...

10) FUTURE CHILDS NAME?
Loll....socho socho!!

11) FINISH THIS STATEMENT - 'IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY I'D
buy a house formyself...:D

12) DO YOU DRIVE FAST?
Never...well I do if I get angry while driving:D

13) DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
Nope....too old for that

14) STORMS - COOL OR SCARY?
Cool....atleast all that i've seen

15) WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?
My wine red alto !

16) FAVOURITE DRINK?
A can of coke anyday!!

17) FINISH THIS STATEMENT- 'IF I HAD THE TIME I WOULD
sleep all day long:P

18) DO YOU EAT THE STEMS ON BROCCOLI?
Sure....the yummiest part:)

19) IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR WITH ANY COLOUR, WHAT WOULD BE YOUR CHOICE?
I dont think i'd ever dye it:)

20) NAME ALL THE DIFFERENT CITIES/TOWNS YOU HAVE LIVED IN?
Too little space....too many cities...!

21) FAVOURITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Formula One, Cricket!

22) ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
The best there ever cud be....!!

23) WHATS UNDER YOUR BED?
all my shoes...

24) WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE BORN AS YOURSELF AGAIN?
Yep....:)

25) MORNING PERSON OR NIGHT OWL?
neither:D

26) OVER EASY OR SUNNY SIDE UP?
Sunny side up

27) FAVOURITE PLACE TO RELAX?
On my bed!

28) FAVOURITE PIE?
Apple Pie...with Vannila Ice cream

29) FAVOURITE ICECREAM FLAVOUR?
Anything fruity:)

30) OF ALL THE PEOPLE YOU HAVE TAGGED, WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST?
Not tagging anyone :)

Eight

8 things I am passionate about...

1. Mann

2. My work

3. Good Food

4. Family

5. My Car

6. Movies & Music

7. My N70

8. Mann (put here intenstionally)

8 things I want to do before I die...
1. Start my own restaurant.

2. Own a bose home theatre.

3. Buy a house in Goa.

4. Travel the world.

5. Discover a mummy in Egypt by accident.

6. Hit a gym!!

7. Sponsor/adopt a child.

8. Watch a Formula One race.

8 things I say often...

I don't say a lot...........do I???

8 movies that I have loved watching
1. Casino royale

2. Iron Man

3. Hera Pheri

4. Just Married

5. Bruce Almighty

6. Meet the Parents

7. Jo Jeeta Wohi Sikander

8. Lage Raho Munna Bhai

8 songs I could listen to over and over again...
1. When you say nothing at all - Ronan Keating

2. Nothing else matters - Metallica

3. In the end - Linkin Park

4. Hey There Delilah - Plain White T's

5. Susanna - Art Company

6. TOp of the World - Carpenters

7. Aa chal ke tujhe - Kishore Kumar

8. Alvida - Liefe in a Metro

Lessons in management!

Got this one as an E- mail.....had to put it here :)

Lesson1

A man is getting into the shower just as his wife is finishing up her shower, when the doorbell rings. The wife quickly wraps herself in a towel and runs downstairs. When she opens the door, there stands Bob, the next-door neighbour.

Before she says a word, Bob says, 'I'll give you $800 to drop that towel.' After thinking for a moment, the woman drops her towel and stands naked in front of Bob, after a few seconds, Bob hands her $800 and leaves.
The woman wraps back up in the towel and goes back upstairs. When she gets to the bathroom, her husband asks, 'Who was that?'
'It was Bob the next door neighbour,' she replies.
'Great,' the husband says, 'did he say anything about the $800 he owes me?'

Moral of the story:
If you share critical information pertaining to credit and risk with your shareholders in time, you may be in a position to prevent avoidable exposure.

Lesson 2

A sales rep, an administration clerk, and the manager are walking to lunch when they find an antique oil lamp. They rub it and a Genie comes out. The Genie says, 'I'll give each of you just one wish.'
'Me first! Me first!' says the admin clerk. 'I want to be in the Bahamas, driving a speedboat, without a care in the world.'
Puff! She's gone.
'Me next! Me next!' says the sales rep. 'I want to be in Hawaii , relaxing on the beach with my personal masseuse, an endless supply of Pina Coladas and the love of my life.'
Puff! He's gone.
'OK, you're up,' the Genie says to the manager.
The manager says, 'I want those two back in the office after lunch.'

Moral of the story:
Always let your boss have the first say.

Lesson 3

An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him, 'Can I also sit like you and do nothing?' The eagle answered: 'Sure, why not.' So, the rabbit sat on he ground below the eagle and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Moral of the story:
To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.

Lesson 4

A turkey was chatting with a bull. 'I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree' sighed the turkey, 'but I haven't got the energy.' 'Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?' replied the bull. They're packed with nutrients.'

The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough str ength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree.
He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.

Moral of the story:
Bulls**t might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there...

Lesson 5

A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground nto a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy.
A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Morals of the story:
(1) Not everyone who s**ts on you is your enemy.
(2) Not everyone who gets you out of s**t is your friend.
(3) And when you're in deep s**t, it's best to keep your mouth shut!

Lift me up.....

It often happens with me….I write the best when I am the saddest. Well…I guess today is gonna be a real good …or I hope not!

Point in question….what does one mean when he says ‘he cares’? Does he show it to make it evident or does the care come from the heart? Why is it essential to be demonstrative? Why can’t you be discrete yet prove that you care? Why is there just a one right way to do a thing? Why isn’t just wanting to do the right worthy of the care you possess?

People are better at it and I am not….there is chaos around…do I care? There is heartburn….do I care? There is repentance…do I care? There is mistrust….do I care? There are tears….do I care? There is love….do I care?

Love….more than a 4 letter word…its an emotional roller coaster. I never proclaimed to have understood all or any emotions associated with it….I think I never will!!….And then they say when you’re in love everything comes naturally to you….is that generalizing? Does everything come that naturally? Walking comes naturally to humans…but u fall so many times before you perfect it….Speaking comes naturally to us…..but u fumble and falter until u can pronounce the words correctly…..

The intention to do it better is often misconstrued to be an effort to do it better. And once that happens, the vicious circle starts…

I wish I had it right all the time….I wish I could show I care. I wish my intentions weren’t mistaken to be efforts. I wish my actions didn’t end up raising questions about my priorities. I wish my deeds were answers to questions that mind throws around. I wish righteousness converged with my decision making as well. I wish my silences could be heard. I wish my heart could be bared to show that it had no space for any secrets. I wish my want to do things the right way wasn’t thought of as actions under force.

I wish I could do more, be more, say more…..

Questions questions….Wishes wishes…..loads of them…I guess I’ll never find the answers or have my wishes come true…...I climb into my bed each day thinking…have I made it better in any way…and more often than not the answer come…"Not half as well as you could have done.” If questioning oneself is being perfect, then the word perfect itself doesn’t hold valid.

Kiteflying…..I don’t know why I am reminded of it….You keep letting the string go so that your kite can soar higher….and look mightier than everyone else’s!!!…..As long as the string you have is long enough, the kite will soar….You let go of a lil bit of the string and it goes higher…Coz if the string isn’t long enough, the kite will feel restricted and soon enough fly off ….string and all ….and then there’d be someone there to catch the kite and add more string to it so that it can fly higher and mightier still….

We tend to complicate thing…..we tend not to think through at times….Its all about happiness….Its all about what others do for you when you have that tear in your eye…..Its all about being there when you most need it!! Love shall prevail…..if you want it to….

Robbie Williams; it seems realized it much sooner...

Send someone to love me

I need to rest in arms

Keep me safe from harm

In pouring rain

Give me endless summer

Lord I fear the cold

Feel I'm getting old

Before my time

As my soul heals the shame

I will grow through this pain

Lord I'm doing all I can

To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience

'Cause it's not my fault

I know I've been taught

To take the blame

Rest assured my angels

Will catch my tears

Walk me out of here

I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame

I will grow through this pain

Lord I'm doing all I can

To be a better man

Me in the Wonderland

Tanuj came to a fork in the road. "Which road do I take?" he asked.
"Where do you want to go?" responded the Cheshire cat.
"I don't know," Tanuj answered.
"Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter!! Does it??"

Thats what I'd gotten myself into as well. I was living....not knowing how, not knowing why....just living. Until things changed and changed for the better....Realizations come to me...slower than they do to others!! I had an answer for the Cheshire Cat.....I wanna go on the road which would take me to love, to freedom and to learning....thats what I want from life.

The Cat showed me the way.....I have love which I cherish, I have freedom which I take for granted and I have learnings which I crib about.....

Love...what does it do to you? How long has it been since someone touched part of you other than your body? Its what has gotten me to where I am and those who are responsible for it know it as they read. I have been lucky, I turned my face away from love refusing to believe its very existence. It never went away. It stayed there till I looked back and from then on, its been with me through thick and through thin...!! One needs to learn to respect love... It makes the journey of life worthwhile. Its given me a purpose for sure....I teaches you to dream, to imagine, to plan....It inspires you to slog, to sweat, to succeed....It is the triumph of imagination over intelligence!! ....believe and enjoy it....:)

Freedom...Often taken for granted...Its an blessing, to each one of us. For me, its a chance to be better...Its my right to live the way I wish to. It is the reason why I am happy. Its what allows me to make mistakes and yet come up stronger..It gives me the ability to do what I want, to be what I am, to go where I want to- enjoy the trees, the sea,the mountains, the smell of rain on earth.., to read or hear what I wish, to eat what I want to. Freedom is also the ability to choose wrongly & irresponsible.
We are extremely lucky to have been born in a country as free as India. Its sad that a lot of us have chosen rather irresponsibly at times. With great power come great responsibilities. Freedom is our power. We can use this power either to be Hyde or Jekyll..

Learning....Some people walk in the rain, others just get wet...what do you wanna do? No matter where I go or what I do, I'll always live my entire life within the confines of my head. And I want my head to be as huge as possible. the learning never stops. Each day brings with it something new.... and to learn the new we must look at the yesterday as well. If I stop learning, I'll stop growing and if I stop growing, I stop living!! Be it books, movies, the TV, my boss, the office politics...it brings with it learning and if you don't learn fast enough, you're in danger of becoming extinct. And thats something I'm certainly not willing to do....

Getting back to the Cat..... Here's wht else he said...."Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do."

Nowz not for ever....but live now to the fullest:)

P.s- I don't know why I am writing this.....Saw OSO today....a decent flick...here's a quote from the movie which made me think...."kehte hai ki filmon ki tarah hamari zindagi mein bhi end tak sab theek hee ho jaata hai..happys endings...aur agar theek naa ho toh woh the end nahi, picture abhi baaki hai mere dost..." True...isn't it?? Wish loadsss of happiness to all of ya...:)

Slacker Blogger

"I bargained with Life for a penny,
And Life would pay no more,
However I begged at evening
When I counted my scanty store;

For Life is a just employer,
He gives you what you ask,
But once you have set the wages,
Why, you must bear the task.

I worked for a menial's hire,
Only to learn, dismayed,
That any wage I had asked of Life,
Life would have paid."

I love the last line in there......any wage i had asked of life ...life would have paid. I often find myself here and complaining of life...my work, my lack of work, my privacy, my friends, the traffic, the food....everything!! You get what u throw at life....if its complaints, life creates more and more reasons for u to complain.......U get what u sow!!!

I had nothing special to write in a long time, no personal memorable incidents, no excitement, nothing... seemed as though life had come to a standstill or rather had come to be a monotony...... Damn, this corporate world... The only happy moments left in the day was the 1 hr i got with mann every night......... and then I realised that there was nothing but me stopping myself from believin that the life is a memorable journey, full of excitement....I just have to change my outlook. I just have to throw things which'll make me happy at life and i'll get more happiness....!!

Ok...enough of gyaan....abhi abt me...the weekend was a rather non vegy weekend....Well yeah u read it right...non vegy... (Not that non vegy ....I am one of you guys... i know u think alike....!!!) The real non vegy...As in the food....yeah...If u are a regular reader here u would know that i am the happiest talking abt only 2 things....food being one of them and the other everyone knows...(*blushes*). Ok so the non vegy weekend...I had non veg for lunch and dinner on saturday and sunday....and believe u me...I was done by the sunday dinner...I could not eat a piece...can u beat that ...Me and not eating chicken!! Hmmm...I guess excess of anything does that to u....doesn't it???

I went to my mamu's place this saturday...I got caught for the first time for jumping a red light...well I did not jump the light....I just crossed it when it was yellow...and i was nice enough to stop the car when everyone else was crossing over inspite of the police wala askin them to stop!!! I am a nice guy u see....so I did stop the car when i could have driven straight on...So this fatty guard type person (with his tummy hanging out as though its gonna fall of any second or better still as though he was 18 months pregnant) walks up to me and asks for my papers and my license. By now I have strted to "congratulate" myself for stopping!! Ok...so i give the papers and walk up to the real cop...(who is sitting on a chair and has the buttons of his shirt opened as though he were sitting on a beach in goa)....who calmly tells me that he'll have to cut a challan unless i "think" abt it....Now it doesn't take a genius to decipher what I had to think abt....So i told him to read the name on the registration...(my dads name...hehehe ..he is in the army)....he did that and gave me a sheepish grin and asked me to go....Here's some food for thought......Assuming that the light changes every 2 mins.....and he has a duty of 8 hrs. And each time he catches someone he ends up earning atleast 200 bucks! Almost an opportunity of earning a cool 6000 bucks an hr...and in 8 hrs....48000 bucks!!! thats 48000 bucks for actually doing nuthing and catching hold of guys who innocently cross when the light is yellow....How unfair is that!!!!

Yes so that's the round up...the very unattractive slacker blogger status is creeping up on me and it really doesn't feel good....Do u see me rusting too??? hmm...maybe i should blog more....nahi?? (psst: Dont tell me if u think i have rusted;)......hehehehe)

Till latersss.....Now is not for ever:) :) :)

Found him.....

Dear Blog,

Its bee ages since I wrote something on you….Truth be told..its been so long that I would be surprised if you’d even remember who I am! I’ve just never felt the urge to sit n write something…I sometimes feel that it’s a worthless exercise! Bu then there are times that I get these guilt pangs that I haven’t updated u in more than a month. A lot has happened in my life…most of it you know already!

From the days of nervousness to today (the days of happiness)….I’ve had a helluva ride! And I’m glad the way things have turned out for me….I can only be thankful and hope that life gets better…..( it already is great…and u know why!)

[Mann…ur the reason…stand up and take a Bow…..]

Its been almost 2 yrs that I’ve known you M. Blog…..but do u know me well enough?? Just thought I’d introduce myself better…

• I think Jim Davis was inspired by me when he created Garfield…. eat (big eater), sleep mmm the word makes me sleep!) and hate Mondays (worst day of the week!)!
• I am not a chocolate fan…I have never bought or finished a bar of chocolate!
• I have this extreme urge to be in the good books of everyone and in this process I end up trying too hard and getting stuck
• I find it extremely hard to say a “no” to anyone!
• I have this maniacal urge to have everyone around me smiling!
• I was very conscious about my voice…I still find it too girly!
• I make extremely yummy food…IF I want to…!
• I am a self proclaimed introvert ………. I like it this way!!!
• I am a very slow reader…By the time I finish a novel, you’d probably have be a 170 yrs old!!
• I like sleeping... coz i like dreaming abt u know who
• I have oodles of patience which I loose very often:D
• I never had a cell phone until I was outta my college. I bought a 2100 for 7 grands (my first phone) & the N 70 for 19 grands both from my own salaries.
• I lock myself up and play music really loud music on my comp when I get angry…. I love fiddling with my phone when I am angry and that’s how I learn to use it.
• I love watching the Amazing race…I think the entire concept is a lot of fun!
• I hate…absolutely hate getting on the weighing scale! It scares me..
• I love mangoes….n litchis….n grapes…n oranges….n Chicken Mcgrill burger yummm!
• I am 26 and I love animated movie flicks!! Ice age is my favourite…:)
• My jogging shoes are Canadian worth $100. Extremely comfy!
• I DO NOT snore when I sleep!! (Mann thinks that I do…I refuse to accept it….)
• I have a yellow tiffin box with bunnies on it..and another with one with mickey, pluto n Minnie on it (cant find it any more :-( ) which i still love as much as i did when i was actually 7..
• I hate being woken up…except if its Mann waking me up
• I think I have weird hair….but atleast I have hair….am losing the lil that I have left…I wish I’d have them left before I get married.
• I love watching TV…even if nothing is on…it fascinates me no ends!
• I had a Citibank credit card when I was merely 18!!
• I’ve been to all the states in India except Tripura, Orrisa n Kerela. I love traveling around. P.s - Mann….can we please keep traveling?
• I hate the noise that comes out when u rub ur hand on a balloon!
• I am extremely scared of rides. The only one time I was able to sit on one was with the person I trust the most and of all the people on the ride, I squealed the most.
• I learnt to ride a bicycle coz my mom bribed me with jalebis!
• I learnt to drive a car when I was 15…I’ve had only one accident till date! Touch wood!
• I am scared to decide…but once I do I stick by it!

I know this is very rusty, but I am writing after a longtime…the only way to go from here is up! Coz now….is not forever!!