Friday, April 28, 2006

Ambiguity!!!

As I look back the month that has gone by I realize the ambiguity of things and events around us. It seems like yesterday when I was sitting in my home about two years back, just like today, thinking what life had in store for me.....just like today!!! Today I know that I'd be working 2 months from now... but this isn't it for me...is it? I know i'll get a cool 6 L every year from now on ...but is this it for me? The ambiguity never seems to die off!

I often sit back and wonder...what is it thats taking me where I am goin? Is it my destiny...or is it the efforts. And I strongly favour luck. I agree the efforts have to be there but luck plays a very major role. I feel blessed that I have been able to live my life the way I wanted to. But I still have ambiguity surrounding me...questions and more questions.!! What happens to those who have to make compromises in life? The uncertainity then would be killing. I am blessed and i just hope that i live upto whatever I pursue.

Talking of which, I was in Srinagar this past month for almost 10 days. And man is it a place to be or what. People say that its paradise on earth. Well....I'd say thats an understatement. However, when you roam around the place there is a feeling that you get which never lets you enjoy the place the way you would want to. The people seem rather warm on the outside but I never could figure out what was going on in their minds....There's always a sense of suspision...a fear ...and a hope that u'd live to see the next day. I was there for 10 days!!! Just imagine the plight of the people who live there...who have their businesses there....thats wht you call ambiguity....and I am worried about mine!!

Here are some of teh pics ...jus to make u guys J!

Thts me...in Gulmarg. (Ht= 140000 ft)n Yeah...thts snow u see

Thats not heaven.....thts just a birds eye view of the valley at the back.

Am so glad that i ain't as fat as that tree....:D

Tulips...all kinds and varieties....Who wants to go to Holland now???