Lift me up.....

It often happens with me….I write the best when I am the saddest. Well…I guess today is gonna be a real good …or I hope not!

Point in question….what does one mean when he says ‘he cares’? Does he show it to make it evident or does the care come from the heart? Why is it essential to be demonstrative? Why can’t you be discrete yet prove that you care? Why is there just a one right way to do a thing? Why isn’t just wanting to do the right worthy of the care you possess?

People are better at it and I am not….there is chaos around…do I care? There is heartburn….do I care? There is repentance…do I care? There is mistrust….do I care? There are tears….do I care? There is love….do I care?

Love….more than a 4 letter word…its an emotional roller coaster. I never proclaimed to have understood all or any emotions associated with it….I think I never will!!….And then they say when you’re in love everything comes naturally to you….is that generalizing? Does everything come that naturally? Walking comes naturally to humans…but u fall so many times before you perfect it….Speaking comes naturally to us…..but u fumble and falter until u can pronounce the words correctly…..

The intention to do it better is often misconstrued to be an effort to do it better. And once that happens, the vicious circle starts…

I wish I had it right all the time….I wish I could show I care. I wish my intentions weren’t mistaken to be efforts. I wish my actions didn’t end up raising questions about my priorities. I wish my deeds were answers to questions that mind throws around. I wish righteousness converged with my decision making as well. I wish my silences could be heard. I wish my heart could be bared to show that it had no space for any secrets. I wish my want to do things the right way wasn’t thought of as actions under force.

I wish I could do more, be more, say more…..

Questions questions….Wishes wishes…..loads of them…I guess I’ll never find the answers or have my wishes come true…...I climb into my bed each day thinking…have I made it better in any way…and more often than not the answer come…"Not half as well as you could have done.” If questioning oneself is being perfect, then the word perfect itself doesn’t hold valid.

Kiteflying…..I don’t know why I am reminded of it….You keep letting the string go so that your kite can soar higher….and look mightier than everyone else’s!!!…..As long as the string you have is long enough, the kite will soar….You let go of a lil bit of the string and it goes higher…Coz if the string isn’t long enough, the kite will feel restricted and soon enough fly off ….string and all ….and then there’d be someone there to catch the kite and add more string to it so that it can fly higher and mightier still….

We tend to complicate thing…..we tend not to think through at times….Its all about happiness….Its all about what others do for you when you have that tear in your eye…..Its all about being there when you most need it!! Love shall prevail…..if you want it to….

Robbie Williams; it seems realized it much sooner...

Send someone to love me

I need to rest in arms

Keep me safe from harm

In pouring rain

Give me endless summer

Lord I fear the cold

Feel I'm getting old

Before my time

As my soul heals the shame

I will grow through this pain

Lord I'm doing all I can

To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience

'Cause it's not my fault

I know I've been taught

To take the blame

Rest assured my angels

Will catch my tears

Walk me out of here

I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame

I will grow through this pain

Lord I'm doing all I can

To be a better man